As I sit here listening to my baby cry......

We've been doing the "cry it out" to help Xavier sleep better. It works fine but I still feel bad for how unconditioned you get with each child to the crying. It's not because I don't care, I guess it's more because I know it's for his own good. I don't feel good about myself as I sit here listening to it, in fact I am doing this just to keep me from running up the stairs.....
I am wondering....does he need his "night-night" or does he just need me? Is he maybe not tired and I have his schedule off today? Is he going to wake up the other two? UGGGHH~~~why can't these children come with instruction manuals??
Anyway, Clare and Will and myself went to the dentist today. Clare had full-on going out clothes-her purple skirt (like a tu-tu) and a cute little tank with sparkley flip flops and matching bow! Will had full Cubs gear! I just had a boring old summer dress compared to the two! It was cute to see them be such "big" kids in the chair, answering every question and just going with the flow! They even sat while I got mine done. I just had to snap my fingers once and give Will a dirty look once! Not bad! Then we big kids went out to lunch~and Xavier played at our neighbor Carolyn's house! (He is still screaming!)
So, back to Xavier, who's still screaming and I think Clare is waking up! Shoot! Anyway, he'd been doing so well with the cry it out, last night he cried for all of 30 seconds and was OUT! Now I am REALLY wondering if I need to go up there and just get him since he's been crying for what like, 10 minutes now? UUUGGGHHH! I feel bad.....
Well, I decided I am going to get him because I'm about sweating, but I just had to do this to keep my mind off of it and it isn't working! Sorry you got drug into it ;) Have a good weekend, my BABY is turning 1.